I’m always eager to increase the amount of love and light in my consciousness. To assist me in this process, my higher self sets up one situation after another to trigger my remaining shadow material. The more old emotional wounds I clear, the brighter my inner light shines through!
I’m able to pass some of these tests with a smile, serenely unruffled. Nice try, dark side, but you didn’t upset me that time! But other events are like guided missiles, precisely hitting my buried wounds and bringing up challenging emotions to be processed.
A Trigger Every Day
Lately, as Maeikisala and I have been packing in preparation for a December move to our wonderful new rental home, it seems like I’m experiencing a major trigger every day! I’m getting plenty of practice at dealing with feelings such as frustration and impatience.
I can feel it when this unpleasant energy gets stirred up. There’s a sense of thickness and heaviness, accompanied by tension or stagnation in my body. Time for another round of clearing at the mesa!
The mesa is the shamanic floor altar where Maeikisala and I do most of our formal energetic work. Depending on what’s happening, I may or may not do the full ritual call-in of our numerous high-vibration spiritual allies. What is certain is that there’s gonna be …
A Whole Lotta Shakin’ Goin’ On!
I do my Healing Invocation shortcut – “Maximum healing that serves highest good, please” – and, as always, relax and let my higher self and spiritual allies run the healing. When a lot of heavy energies are being cleared, my body can shake quite strongly! My lower body often trembles when energies release into the earth, while my upper body can vibrate intensely as waste energy fountains from my crown chakra into the upper realms for purification. It’s also common for me to feel heavy energy flowing out through my hands and feet.
I first experienced this type of intense shaking in ayahuasca ceremonies. In the early days, the shaking could last for hours! Now it happens as needed without me having to ingest any medicine, and only for brief periods.
This shamanic shaking works like a charm. As long as I give my allies enough time to complete the process, I stand up from the mesa feeling like a new man, much more radiant and clear. Sometimes I’ll also take a quick salt shower to clear my energy field even more deeply.
I have lots of other shamanic tools, techniques and potions I can use to support this process. I use these when intuitively guided, but lately I’m more likely to just sit and shake until I’m clear. Increasingly, the medicine I need manifests within me energetically, with no need to consume anything physically.
Mine or Theirs?
Am I shaking out only the heavy energy that was buried in me, or “bad vibes” I picked up from someone else? I usually can’t tell, and frankly am no longer much concerned with such questions.
I try to keep it simple. If heavy energy shows up in me, it’s mine to clear. If it was mine, I just cleared another layer of my Great Onion of Consciousness and opened to a deeper level of awakening. If my allies assigned me some heavy energy that another person couldn’t clear for themselves, then it’s my honor to help them out. We’re all one, right?
Major Catalyst = Major Awakening Opportunity!
Recently a prospective client expressed concern about a consistent pattern in her life. She said that every time she gets into a beautiful spiritual state, it isn’t long before some challenging situation pulls her back out.
She wondered what she’s doing wrong. But maybe she isn’t doing anything wrong. Maybe, like me, her higher self is giving her lots of chances to deepen her divine consciousness.
This can happen with no challenge and abundant bliss, and sometimes it does. But I’ve also found that the more challenging the catalyst, the bigger the potential spiritual breakthrough!
For me, it’s tremendously helpful to understand this. That way, rather than resist and block the challenging processes that will deepen my awakening, I can open to them with gratitude. This makes the release much easier.
I made my three core priorities clear to my higher self years ago: to the greatest extent that serves highest good, I want maximum spiritual awakening, maximum ability to serve others, and maximum ability to receive and follow my inner guidance. I do ask to experience all this with the maximum ease and grace that gets the job done. But the bottom line is that I’m open to whatever it takes, as long as the highest good of all is served.
I hope I haven’t given you the impression that I spend most of my waking hours shaking like a leaf and processing heavy energy through my body! I mostly flow through my days in a wondrous state of ecstasy, which is already present when I physically awaken each morning. (I also know many others who experience persistent bliss.) I love my life, and am profoundly grateful for the privilege of having this awesome human experience as Benjamin.
Why am I telling you all this? Maybe to let you know that when you get triggered, you don’t have to view it as a failure. Maybe it’s just your higher self catalyzing your next layer of healing … which, when successfully accomplished, will open you to a more consistently blissful state of consciousness. And, gods be praised, this process can continue as long as you’re alive. It always gets better than this!